I feel like I might burst

I am missing Israel, the smells, the sun, the way the wind blew across the sea of Galilee. I miss Egypt almost more than I can bear. I have never really thought much about that country, and yet it has some tie within me that I can't explain. The dreams of that land were frequent when I returned to the states two months ago. And though they return sporadically, they lift my spirit and my heart soars.

Recently I watched a bollywood film, Taare Zameen Par, I loved it. I loved the music, the people, the little boy and probably, and more especially, Aamir Kahn. I have tried to get my hands on all things Indian and realized, tonight via a new friend (who's Indian) that HELLO! I have Netflix (dummy me!). I am watching another Aamir Kahn film, Rang De Basnti, and I am weeping, like uncontrollably. I know that I do no know enough about the world, or India, or Egypt or any of these places I care about.. but my heart wants to embrace these cultures and places and people more than I can explain. The music in the film and the image show the people going to worship and all I can think so how beautiful it is. How beautiful life is, how beautiful those people are and how, though we all worship our Gods a bit different, we all want the same things in life. Happiness, peace, that our families will be safe. I want to change the world, and I cannot. I am one person, however, in just a year my blinders have been removed and I am able to love those who are supposedly different than me.

"Something has changed within me, Something is not the same, I am tired of playing by the rules of someone else's game, Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, It's time to trust my instincts, Close my eyes and leap! I think I'll try to defy gravity!"